The Newly Diagnosed Major Depressive Disorder
DISCLAMER: This article is not designed for, nor is it appropriate to self-diagnose.
I was only in the nineth grade when I realised something was not right. All my friends seemed happy and always wanted to go out, but I did not feel the same. I wanted to stay home, and I began to disengage from them. My family (Dad and Stepmum) realised I was not wanting to be around them and hid myself away. They thought it was due to my rebelling and being a teenager, but they did not realise that this is where my story started After disengaging from friends and family I decided to talk to my boarding mother, and she wasn't sure what to think. I told her about the thoughts I had about suicide and she decided I needed to be diagnosed so then I could be properly medicated. So, the following week I went to the local GP (General Practitioner) and told the doctor about everything I told my border mother. My doctor suggested that I start seeing a counsellor and a psychologist. Which was easy enough to do as I lived in the city. I was formally diagnosed after 6 months of meeting with my psychologist fortnightly. She decided I need to be put on an antidepressant. Which helped for a short time (till the end of tenth grade). I was very lost and confused during that time I did not know whether I was going to ever go back to feeling like I did in eighth grade. I wanted to but I just could not. I felt like the whole world was against me, I was there alone without any protection from their words which I endured all throughout high school. After tenth grade I moved from the home I was in, to my aunts. When I moved the doctors took me off my medication claiming I did not need it that I seemed fine. Which was not true, I struggled a lot and I wanted to feel better again so I decided I needed to see a new GP and tell them I needed medication. After two months without my tablets, I started to get the thoughts and feelings again and then fell into my old suicidal routine. My aunt finally noticed when she caught me hurting myself. She was so upset but did not get angry at me as she had gone through the same thing. She made me a doctor's appointment so we could figure something out. At this point I was still seeing my psychologist, but it was only once a month. In this appointment my aunt told the doctor what she saw and what I had said following her finding out. I was told I needed to be diagnosed and medicated gain to help myself out of the situation I was in. So, I was given a new antidepressant I had not heard of before. The medication helped me for years and I was less effected by my thoughts and feelings but occasionally I would fall back into my routine. By the end of twelfth grade I had started my recovery and was doing well. I was no longer seeing any specialists and I did not feel like I was alone anymore. I found a lot of support from various people and support groups. A huge help was just having someone I could talk to but not judge me or ridicule me for any decision I made even if it was not a good decision. I was only fourteen when my journey started; continually moving did not help. But once I found the medication and the help I needed, I started to get myself back and felt better and learnt my triggers. But not only did I learn what triggers me I learnt how to deal with it.
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Look up questions that require an objective viewpoint. You will yield more accurate information by asking questions like ‘What is depression?’ and, ‘What are the the symptoms of depression?’
Use Google Scholar. This is a search engine that has all of the academic information for whatever question you ask. There will not be any opinion-based articles here. The articles are often lengthy and wordy but have great information.
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Unless you are looking for opinions and lived experience stories, try to avoid blog sites and sites that are based off of opinion.
Look for peer reviewed articles or journals. A peer reviewed article basically means that other professionals in the same field have given it credibility by agreeing that it is of a professional and academic standard.
On YouTube, look for videos of interviews from professionals. Any person can create a video full of stigma and upload it. anyone can create a website full of stigmatised information. There should be clues in the title or description.
Research the leading psychologists, professors, psychiatrists in the field of your diagnosis. Look specifically for articles and books where those significant people have contributed to.
If you find an article that you enjoyed, understood, or related to, check the reference list for further research.